Diary of Margaret B. Crozier Ramsay Born Sept. 18, 1802 – Died October 14, 1889 Wife of J.G.M Ramsay, the author of “Annals of Tennessee.” This diary was written during her exile in N. Carolina during the Civil War (War between the States) Written on the back of the Journal- “This journal of my dear wife must not be lost. The truth of history demands its preservation. Hon. J.G. M, Ramsay April 9, 1882 E.A. R. Breck J.G. Mc Knitt Ramsay “Oh! Dark is the gloom o’er my young spirit Oh why do I linger when others are gay? The smile that I wear, is but worn for consealing mind This heart that is waisting in sadness away.” In 1952, the Journal was deposited in the McClung Room of Lawson McGhee Library, Knoxville, Tennessee. The second day of July 1864, I left Knoxville, Tenn. , where I remained ten months under Federal rule or tyranny. Arrived at Bristol , Friday the 8th, found none of our family but Crozier. On Sunday McK. Returned from a scout. Robert in the Valley of Va. With Gen. Carlet, Alex in prison and poor Arthur gone to his long home. Sue in Liberty with her Uncle J.H.C’s family. Dr. Ramsay in the South. We received the order two days before. E.A.B. and myself left on Saturday morning. Many came to see us off and accompanied us to the depot. An officer examined our trunks and sealed them before we left the house. At the depot we met Mrs. Van ****, with two little children, soon after Miss Annie Law came, we then took leave of our friends and M.J.D. and her two little boys also. It was sad times, I was anxious to leave, had heard that dear Arthur was wounded and wished to get to him. We were leaving our native home knowing that we should ever return and where we were going or what sorrowful news we should hear after arriving in the Confederacy. Some friends thought it best for us to remain in Tennessee, but anxiety was so wearing I could bear it no longer. So long had I been separated from my family especially after Sue and Arthur left me. I was so restless and anxious. At Strawberry Plains, only 15 miles from Knoxville, our trunks were again searched and we all taken to the home of Mr. McBee. Our persons searched b y two women was bad, been brought there for that purpose. Maj. Smith, the Yankee officer, in whose charge we were, called then ladies, but they were far from what we considered ladies, so we afterwards told him. That evening we came to Mossy Creek, where we were kindly entertained by Col. Hubbard and his family – he told us he could give us rooms, but had no provisions, everything almost had been taken from him, his servants all gone, as that was all we needed, having provisions with us. We remained there until the afternoon of the next day. The Maj. told us he could take us no farther as the train stopt here. The understanding was they were to take us to the Confederate lines. Here we were in a dilemma, knew not what to do. After parlaying a while, he consented to see Gen. Carter if could get leave, would return the next day with some conveyance and take us on. True to his promise the Maj. Came the next day with an ambulance, baggage wagon and 25 armed soldiers carrying a white flag. We met with some relatives at Co., H’s. Mr G. Caldwell who lives near New Market heard of us passing, brought his family to see us, - he married Ann Ramsay, - they wished us to stay with them. But I was so anxious to go on, could not think of it. In the afternoon before we left Mossy Creek, a company of Confederates came, going to New Market under a flag of truce to meet the Federals on some business. Among them were some acquaintances, there I saw Mr. James White of Knoxville, who told me that my poor son Arthur’s foot was taken off, but that he was doing very well. That distressed me, but I hoped I should get to him. He also told me Robert had come through the fight safe. A letter received from Alex, before leaving Knoxville informed us he was a prisoner, --Arthur wounded. Robert was in the fight that he never saw him after the fight commenced, of course I had cause for anxiety. On Sabbath evening after taking leave of our brave Confederate soldiers and relatives and the find family of Col. H. came ten miles to the widow Shannon’s, - there Mr. Hill and old acquaintances called to see me. All the Yankees treated us politely except the driver and a boy, they talked incessantly when the officers were not present, - pointed to us the places where they had whipped the “Rebs” and run them, swearing all the time. We often reproved them, they replied that the “ Rebs” swore worse then they. I told them I had never heard a Rebel soldier swear when he was talking to ladies. I must say for Maj. Smith that his conduct was always gentlemanly. I cannot complain except of our treatment at the Plains, which every one of honorable feelings will say was unjust, unmanly, and rude. Maj. Smith was not to blame, said he was so ordered and when the act was refered to, it seemed to annoy him. Capt. Robertson, was also polite not so refined as the Major, - was rather familiar with the young ladies. They were very particular when we stopped at a village to dine or lodge, to select the best house for us, although they did not remain there themselves but sought entertainment elsewhere. I wish to do justice to even our enemies. I said very little to the private soldiers and often shook my head at the other ladies, who were all much younger than I, to stop them from talking: they would become excited at some remark or other. This escort took us to Greeneville, Tenn. We were received by Mrs. Williams at her hospitable and elegant mansion after a fatiguing journey over rough roads, dust and the hot sun, the kindness of our hostess, her cool rooms, pleasant walks through the vineyard and garden were truly refreshing, - arrived at 10:00 A.M., had to remain till the next day as the flag of truce did not meet us, till the next afternoon. Next day, dined at Mr . Lourir’s where we had a very fine dinner and every kindness from his pleasant family. It will be proper to mention that before leaving home the Yankees kept us waiting for an answer from the Confederate Authorities when they would meet the flag of truce. When we received orders to leave supposed all was right, but when we met our Scouts at Mossy Creek found then knew nothing of us coming and no arrangements had been made. Captain Jenkins who had command of the Squad Sent Capt. Carnes and Mr. Ish back with us to come from Greeneville to Jonesborough is a rough open wagon and broken down horses that had to stop every half hour to rest. The afternoon we left Greeneville, came to a village and lodged at Mr. Center’s, a very nice place and kind family. It was near 10 when we got there, Mrs. D. , her children , and myself were alone with the driver, the others went on with the soldiers on horseback. Mrs. C. and some of our company were at the door looking for us,, said they were much alarmed, feared the bushwhackers had interrupted us. We were so wearied, though not of any danger. I wished to go immediately to bed, but Mrs. C. kindly insisted I should take some supper, said I would rest better. After bathing my face in cool water and eating supper, I was much refreshed. Then we had nice cool rooms with everything we needed and I had had a low sweet couch by a window. Next morning we arose, all signs of weariness had disappeared. After partaking of a good breakfast, MrsC. gave us cheese, pickles, bread, etc. for lunch on the way, and kindly gave me a cheese to take to my poor Arthur, who I was destined never more to see. Arrived at Jonesborough in the afternoon, found an ambulance waiting for us, here Mrs. J stopt at her father’s – We were urged to stay all night by several kind ladies. Mrs. Akers said she had prepared for us. Col. Brazelton asked what I wished to do – told him I wished to go on if it would not put others to inconvenience as I wished to get to my son as soon as possible, he said nothing, for he knew I should never see him again. It was known by all in Jonesboro but no one would tell me. We came on ten miles, I believe, to Mr. Devaults – at the river, we crossed the river by moonlight, I t was wide but shallow, - spent the night at Mr. Devault’s. In the morning after we had breakfast and were ready to start, I saw Capt. Carnes coming and ran to the door to meet him, - asked the news from Bristol, he then told me the sad and to me, distressing news of poor Arthur’s death. I returned to the room, threw myself on the bed and cried out in agony – O, that is too hard, - too much – more than I can bear – Then it was I felt like murmuring – When dear C died, it was a very sore trial and I did nothing but weep, for months after and then dear Ettie but, I did not feel like “replying against God.” But this was such a shock I wish for death. The ladies stood around me and my kind hostess said “O I wish I could do something for you.” Capt. Carnes told the ladies he disliked very much to tell me but Crozier told him before he left Bristol to do so. I suppose Crozier did not want to tell me himself. We crossed the Watauga by moon light could see as well as in daylight – everything was so serene and beautiful, - could have enjoyed it so much under other circumstances. I cannot write of these things without my eyes filling with tears, and often when the thought of these three lovely ones comes across my mind, I am obliged to throw it off and force my thoughts to some other subjects. At Bristol we met with kindness from many of the ladies – stayed at the Lancaster House 11 days where we were kindly treated by Mr. Lancaster and family. Mrs. L and her mother Mrs. Ligon are very nice ladies and treated us with much kindness. So did many others. Mrs. Anderson, Mrs. Hamilton, Mrs. Wilbar, Mrs. Moore, Mr. Coleman Editor and others. It was hard living at Bristol and as they liable at any time to have to raid from the enemy, we thought best to leave the border and go into the interior of the Confederacy especially as Crozier and Mc. expected to leave that place. Poor Crozier delayed too long, he was caught with many others and taken to Knoxville and put into prison, - were treated very badly . (Mr. Wm. Sperry and Fox put in irons and marched through the streets of Knoxville, were taken from the Rebel Prison and put in with Yankee deserters and horse thieves – were robbed of everything and expected to be murdered. A Yankee officer came into the prison at night, made a speech to these lawless fellows, said these three Rebels were very bad men, he could do nothing his hands were tied, but they could do with them as they pleased, and no injury should be made, that if he had his way they should soon be put out of the way. The three lay back and heard all that he said. It was Christmas and the fellow had been drinking. After he left, Crozier got up, sat down by the fire, talked with the men and found them in good humor. They said we are not going to hurt you, we would rather kill that fellow, he had been having a jolly time while we are shut up and half starved, Mr. Sperry came to N.C. and told us all about their capture and how they were treated at Knoxville. He said he was always so mad he could not talk to their enemies and Mr. Fox was so scared say nothing but Crozier always talked to them and amused them, so that they became his friends. They were all in jail with poor Abner Baker when they were first brought to Knoxville. The night he was taken out and hung, they all expected to share the same fate. It was a dreadful night. We could have some idea of how it was in the time of the persecution of the Christians, long ago. We were robbed of everything, houses burned, ladies insulted. I asked one man how he would like for his mother and sisters to be so treated, he said if they were rebels he would think it was all right. The poor ignorant fellow did not know anything about the causes of the war or what he was fighting for. We left Bristol in October 1864, arrived in July before, Went on to Charlotte, N.C. , the cars were in bad condition, very rough traveling, left Bristol 12 o’clock at night. There was very little light, not fire and it was very cold going through the mountains. When we go to B----keville in Va. met the train from Richmond with many sick and wounded soldiers. They filled the car we were in, the gentlemen with us had to stand. It was distressing to hear the groans of the poor soldiers, all night and very dark...... could be very kind to them, but had a poor chance to do anything for them, the car was so crowded. It was very unpleasant and dangerous trip, the road was not safe and the cars very shackling. That fearful high bridge in Va. , was terrible and we went so slow, seemed as if we would never get to the end. But Providence took care of us and we went over that dangerous way without any accident. Cabarrus County, Concord, North Carolina March 6, 1865 Arrived here at Mr. Cannon’s this evening. My son J.G.M. Ramsay came with me. This is a pleasant place, kind and hospitable people. After dark, my nephew John Crozier came, - we were very glad to see him. The last time was at our own home almost two years ago, - then my dear son Arthur was with us, my heart yearned to this young boy whose presence brought up many sad recollections, and I wished I could do something for him. It is little I can do , now, for the soldiers. He was riding without a saddle, had no overcoat, was cheerful. March 7 This morning the two young soldiers left to go to their command. Mc. To Wytheville, John to Raleigh to Wheeler. When shall I see them again? – God only knows and I pray to Him to protect them, it is always sad to part with soldiers. I commenced teaching the children, two little boys and one little girl, very pleasant children. March 9 Four soldiers came here to stay all night, going to Raleigh, belonged to Butler’s Cav., they were wet and cold had been raining all day. The family did everything for their comfort. They were S. Carolinians and told us of the desolations and cruelty of the enemy in that downtrodden state. March 10 A bright day after the stormy weather yesterday. Went to church, - this is the day of fasting and prayer, for our Confederacy. Heard and excellent sermon, text James the 4th – “ Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He shall lift you up.” March 12 Sabbath, pleasant day, but muddy roads. Went to church and heard another good sermon. Heard yesterday from my son Alexander who is a prisoner, had not heard from him in six months. I was greatly relieved, had been extremely anxious, - look for him now all the while. O God will thou pity us and return our two sons who are in the hands of the enemy to us, in Thee alone we we look for help. March 13 Very warm. March 14 Rain March 15 – 16 – 17 Much rain and wind. March 18 Pleasant. Dr. R------ came this morning. March 19 Fine weather. What a privilege to go to the house of prayer every Sabbath and hear such good sermons in these perilous times. March 20 Dr. R------ returned to Charlotte. Gen. Humes there wounded. March 23 Cold and windy. Received a letter from my son Mc. Got Wytheville had some detention on the way, stayed one night at Liberty with our relations, saw his two cousins I. and O. Deaderick, just returned from prison, they had heard from Alex . Mc. also saw an acquaintance of Alex from Camp Merton, who had seen A. said he would be sent off soon. Heard too from poor Crozier , the chains had been taken off and he is now treated better, his friends are now allowed to visit him which was at first refused. March 25 This is Dr. Ramsay’s birthday, no family union, no social cluster around the fireside now, no gathering around the beautiful table, our household scattered, Our home ashes, three beloved ones taken from us, to a better home we trust, dear Crozier and Alexander prisoners, Robert and Mc. At the front, the rest of us scattered in N.C., - seldom more than two together. But our Heavenly Father can be with us all. Can protect us all, can provide for our wants if we only go and lay before Him all our trails and cast all our burdens and trust Him. March 26 Clear and cold. Went to church , text Isaiah 26: 20. March 27 Pleasant. All hands farming and gardening. Mr and Mrs Penick spent the day here, very pleasant people. March 28 Cloudy. March 29 Sunshine and clouds. Received a letter from Rev. G.A. Caldwell, had heard from Knoxville. My poor son Crozier very sick in hospital. O, Lord will Thou protect him, draw his heart to Thee and teach him to seek an interest in Christ. “Bow down Thine ear, O Lord, Hear me for I am poor and needy. Let my prayer come before Thee, incline Thine ear unto my cry, for my soul is full of trouble. O Lord, Hear me for I am poor and needy. Let my prayer come before Thee, incline Thine ear unto my cry, for my soul is full of trouble. O , that I had wings like a dove, for them I would fly away and be at rest.” “I would hasten my escape from the windy storm and tempest.” April 1865 April 1 Clear and windy. The enemy said to be advancing. April 2 Pleasant weather. Went to church, tex t Rev. Chapter 3th verse 17 and 18. Solemn day, Mr. P. prayed earnestly for our country particularly for this part, as its said that enemy is advancing in this direction. Distressing times, we don’t know that we shall be permitted to meet again. O !, when this cruel war cease. Looking every day for Alexander. April 3 A. R. A. came here to-day, Heard from E.A. R. B at Mrs. Alexander’s. April 4 Letters from sister Mary C., Mc. and Sue. April 6 Showery – letter from Dr. R says R. and Mc. In danger, would like to know when any of our poor boys were not in danger. Richmond given up – the armies falling back from Va. and Tenn. Times gloomy. April 8 Dr. R. came to-day, seems hopeful, is not ready to give up our cause yet. A. not yet come. If our people would only trust more in God, we should succeed but they trust too much in particular men some in one and some in another. April 1865 Cabarrus County N.C. April 15 Rain. News distressing – was not correct as what we heard. April 16 A lovely Sabbath morn. This day two years ago our dear Charlotte died. Never a day passes but I think of her – of that sad time of distressing days and nights spent at our lovely home, - then dear Arthur was with us and all the family except dear Crozier who was at Vicksburg, Now the household scattered – no two together, - C. and A. prisoners, R. and Mc. Kin the army, - Sue in Charlotte, E. I n 10 miles from C. –M in Tenn. And their father, I know not where – but God is everywhere. O! my Heavenly Father will Thou protect for Jesus sake. Thou hast said if we come, shall be accepted, if we ask, shall receive. I ask for nothing because we are deserving but through Thine only Son who died to save sinners. Sabbath eve. Started to church, Mr. P. overtook me, said Mr. C. thought I had better return, - the country is full of horse thieves, lawless soldiers prowling around. People are alarmed – report is, the Army is disbanded, many soldiers stealing horses to return home. Can hear nothing from Vangh--- R. or McK. April 18 Many soldiers from Gen. Lee’s army are returning, he has certainly surrendered. All who could are escaping. The lawless band at Concord still continue to annoy the citizens – are here every day. This evening we arose from supper saw some one riding down the road. Mr. C said there comes another and seemed perplexed. I went to the door, soon as he came thought the gate, I exclaimed – “ It is Robert” – all fears vanished and I was so rejoiced for I had nearly given up hope of receiving any of our dear ones again. Robert and. McK. Got to cousin Abbey’s last night after all had retired where E. was. Robert says he heard recently from Crozier, that he is well and treated kindly by many friends and was quite a favorite with the Yankees surgeon, who permitted C. to remain in the hospital – R. had also heard from A. saw some prisoners from C. Morton, said he was well and would get off soon, Of course I felt much better than for some days past. I thank our kind Father and Protector for His great mercies, that in the midst of distress, have blessed by the sight of some of our dear ones, once more and to hear from others. – Mr. C. looks bright now, he is much relieved by R. being here. April 19 Dear Robert left this afternoon to go towards Charlotte to hear from Gen. Vanghn. It distressed me to see him start off again, he is perplexed – think of going across the Mississippi. I don’t want him to go but don’t know what advice to give, hope to see him again before he leaves – said Mc. Would be here to – day perhaps. Sue or E. would come with him. April 20 Mc. did not come. Several soldiers from Gen. Lee’s army here – report Gen. Lee was treated with great respect. Gen. Grant refused his sword, the Yankees told our men they were brave soldiers, that if Gen Lee had as many men as they had we never could be conquered, Have an Armistice for 60 days for to make terms of peace. April 22 McK. came. News of the death of Lincoln and Seward confirmed. Report fighting going on between the U.S. and France if so the term of peace may be more favorable for us. April 23 Did not go to church. The Army being disbanded, the country is filled with soldiers stealing horses, mules and every one has to keep watch. April 27 Beautiful weather – sad times – all confusion now. Under the hand of the Great Creator, beauty and order sprang from chaos, so now He in His own good time restore law and order, now when all is anarchy. Like the Jews when in captivity how we have yearned for our homes. “ By the rivers of Babylon there we sat down, yea , we wept, when we remembered Zion.” Now our destiny hangs on the will of a vile man – Not so – God holds it in His hand, consoling thought – if it is His will that we shall again return to our homes – all the powers of Satan and earth cannot prevent it. If He has otherwise ordained, we known there is a far richer inheritance above – “ where moth and rust doth not corrupt and where thieves break not through and steal.” April 30 The third Sabbath I have not been to church. May 1 Wheeler’s Cavalry encamped 2 miles from here, many of the Tennesseans called to see me – all nice, genteel young men. The soldiers from other states are annoying the citizens, wanting everything and stealing horses, mules, etc. Soldiers left this morning. May 2 Sue and A. came this evening. May 7 Went to church. Dr. Ramsay came this morning, went to Augusta, had a fatiqueing trip, was too feeble to attend church. Everything in confusion. Don’t know what we are to do. May 8 Spent the day at Dr. Gibson’s very pleasantly. May 13 Sue dined at Mr. Harris’ with several young friends, had a fine dinner and pleasant party. May 14 Went to church met dear McK. There, came home with us to dinner, it is so pleasant for us McK. Returned to meet now as we are all separated so much. May 20 Service preparatory to the communion. – the pastor’s father preached a most excellent sermon, humility the theme of his discourse. How beautiful to see an aged minister in the pulpit with his son. In the afternoon, Mr. Anderson a most excellent sermon, very pleasant speaker. May 21 Communion Sermon by Mr. Craig, very interesting and beautiful speaker, most excellent sermon. Congregation large, services solemn. Communion service by the pastor Mr. Penick. Sermon in the afternoon by the elder Mr. Penick. A most powerful discourse to the impenitent, the whole service during the meeting very solemn and impressive. May 22 Spent a pleasant day at Mr. C I. Harris’ very interesting family, - finest strawberries, great quantity, most beautiful sight to see them so large and fine. Sue left this evening for Mecklenburg Co. Dr. Ramsay also. I am again left alone but we must do something for our living. Now at 62 years of age I am teaching for my board. I often feel weary, sad , and lonely. I just all our trails may be for good, may be as silver from the furnace, refined and prepared for a better inheritance of which we cannot be robbed, Oh! Heavenly Father will Thou help me to bare all I have gone through, fiery trials, - grant me patience, resignation, to endure to the end. May 25 One year since I saw the last of dear Ettie, a year and one month before our loved Charlotte was taken. Then the question arose in my mind – who shall be the next? It was soon answered. May 28 A beautiful Sabbath after two days of rain, attended a funeral before the service in the church. Sermon by Mr. Craig, text Eccl. 12 ch. 1st verse. “ Remember thy Creator etc. A solemn appeal to youth. He shewed how hard to turn to God after spending in pleasure all the days of youth. “ When the keeper of the house shall tremble, the grinders cease, the windows darkened, when they shall be afraid of that which is high, the grasshopper shall be a burden” etc. May 29 A sad and lonely feeling came over me to-day, took a walk to a place which reminds me of home. Sat down on a stump and gave went to my feelings. Our beautiful home all came up before me, - the large and stately trees - the grandrivers, the deep and quiet French Broad, the more rapid Holston – the roaring of the shoals – and the grand old bluff, so lofty – the green fields with growing grain etc. All these I was once mistress of - Now all occupied by the vandals who desolated out beautiful country. Not the old mansion where we dispensed hospitality with a liberal hand, is in ashes – The shade trees, where our children played so happily, now stand all black and charred, not by thunder bolts. But by the ruthless hand of man – Is it any wonder that we sit solitary like the children of Israel when in captivity – “ by the rivers of Babyon we sat , yea wept – “ We hanged our harps on the willows” etc. Often when at our old home, Dr. Ramsay in playfulness, called me the duchess of Mecklenburg and dear C. the princess Charlotte. Now I am the poor governess. We were never considered proud, all in the neighborhood came to us for favors or assistance, none were ever refused. How was it when our enemies possessed the country. Those who visited us so often eat at our table flattered and fawned, the most were the first to injure – together with the still lower class that had been often fed and clothed by our bounty – O. for grace to forgive them. June 2 Dr. Ramsay came this evening. He and our children had been in great distress had heard dear Crozier had died in a northern prison. June - After three days of distressing suspense, heard it was another man. I find that it was during this time that I felt so lonely and depressed. We are powerless, there is no help but in God. All we can do is to pray for mercy through Christ our compassionate Redeemer. Robert, has returned safe for which we should be grateful to our Heavenly Father. Went to church, Dr. Ramsay took leave of me at church to return to his business. June 5 A year to-day since poor Arthur was wounded and Alex taken prisoner. These anniversaries are so sad. June 6 3 months since I came here. June 8 E.A.B. and Robert came. June 11 Went to church - weather very warm. June 12 Last week finished reading through the Bible. Commenced it again to-day. June 15 Another sad anniversary - dear Arthur my youngest son, the pet of the household died this day one year ago, near Stanton Va. I received a letter from Alex from Camp Menton that he was taken prisoner the 5th , and Arthur wounded, left Knoxville - 2 July, heard at Mossy Creek by Whate, poor Alex was amputated was doing well, I hastened on, determined to go to him. The morning before reaching Bristol, heard he was no more. I was greatly shocked, cannot express my feelings, had no desire to live. I was so anxious to come on his account, now I had lost my interest in anything, was with strangers but they were kind and sympathizing – Robert went as soon as he could to see him - saw only his grave - he was shocked when he arrived for had heard the same that I - He saw the family who took care of the dear boy, he was kindly cared for. They talked to him, said he was not afraid to die, asked them to pray for him. I hope to meet my lovely children in a better world, where there is no sin nor sorrow – “ Where the wicked cease from trembling and the weary are at rest .” Arthur was a pleasant youth, every person loved him, his teachers always said he was the best boy in school. His captain and others of the Co. told me the same. Capt G. said he was so brave and stood fire like a man. Capt G. did not survive his friend long, he was killed soon after. O! Jesus, Though didst have compassion on weak and sinful women, Thou healed their diseases forgive their sins, will Thou have compassion on me and comfort my heart and forgive my sins. “ For Thou Lord art good and ready to forgive and plenteous in mercy unto all that call upon thee.” June 17 A thunder storm in the afternoon, Dr, Ramsay came , brought me a letter from M. L . from Knoxville, the first since we left her in Tennessee. June 18 Went to church. June 19 Dr. Ramsay, E.A. B. left for Mecklenburg County. June 23 Mc. Came to – day, no news from C. and A. yet. June 25 Raining for several days, did not go to church. Mr. C. and Mc. Went. In the evening Mc. left. June 26 A letter from Sue, she heard Alex was to be at Rock Hill, the day before – the first news we have had of him for months, feared we should never see him more. June 28 R. came to see me to – day, I am so glad to see our children. It is so seldom we meet – how long are we to live so? June 30 Dr. Ramsay and Col. F.A. Ramsay came to-day , brought me a letter from M. J. had seen Alex and heard from Crozier. We should all be so thankful to God for His mercies, although we have been greatly afflicted and bereaved, yet God has been kind and merciful. July 2 Went to church, an excellent sermon, text Acts Ch 16 verse 30 -31. This day one year ago E. Breck and myself left Knoxville, it was an eventful day – was Sat. We got Mossy Creek that night remained there the Sabbath till evening. Mr. G. Caldwell and Ann came to see us remained till we left. Here we met a company of our scouts going to meet the Yankee’s with a flag of truce, heard from our family. James White of Knoxville told they had heard that dear Arthue had his foot amputated, but was doing very well, this news was distressing but I hoped to see him and determined to go to him soon as I could get there, but was doomed to be sadly disappointed. July 3 Dr. Ramsay and Col. A left this morn. Threshing wheat. July 8 R. brought two letters from Mr. Deaderick, one from Gen. Vaughn, containing much news from Tenn. O! Tennessee how art thou fallen, the best citizens driven off when they return the soldiers shot down at their homes. July 14 Alex and his Pa came this evening, almost two years since we three were together . Alex suffered greatly the prisoners at Camp Moreton, being treated very badly, - many died of ill treatment. Can such a nation prosper – God reigns and all will be right, that is a consoling thought. July 21 Dr. Ramsay came to see Col. B. A. who is here very sick, brought a letter from Crozier and one from M.J. I saw so thankful to hear from them and to know C. has been released and with his friends at Nashville, who are very kind to him, has been advised not to return to Knoxville as this is dangerous. M.J. sent us dear Arthur’s likeness. July 30 A violent storm last night – vivid lightening, tremendous peals of thunder, with excessive rain. Vegetation wsa suffering for rain and the heat has been very oppressive. Went to church this morning, heard a most excellent sermon from Mr. Craig 1 Peter Ch. 1 verse 18. “ Be Ye Holy “ showed first what holiness was then, how we should know if we possessed this holiness – what were the marks - then dwelt much on the necessity of obtaining holiness - without which we could never ever reach Heaven. It was exceedingly searching to Christians. This evening another storm, heavy rain and thunder. August 1 Rain through the day – sunshine in the eve. September 24 More than a month since I last wrote in this journal. I have been confined with chills and fever for more than a month. Sometime in August Sue came to Cabarras to see me, was taken sick. I sent her to Pa. Soon as she got better Mc. brought a buggy to take her back. The morning before he came I was taken with a chill, was very sick all day. The next morning I got Mc. to send us in his carriage to Mecklenburg, Aug. 25. It was well I came then, I could not have come any time since being confined most of the time to bed, and still very weak. We are now keeping house, came here last day of August. October 22 Received a letter yesterday from dear Crozier, our anxiety was much relieved on his account as last week was the time he was to be in Knoxville for trial, but his case was continue until the next term in April. As Crozier has been sent twice to Knoxville and put in prison and received such rough treatment, of course we were uneasy. In Sept. while quietly attending to business at Nashville, not expecting to be molested till Oct. the time of his trial, he was suddenly arrested, taken to Knoxville remanded to prison. – He was kept only a week , gave bail, but had to remain in jail till night on account of mob, - was then guarded to the train and returned to Nashville. I must note down, a remarkable Providence – Crozier was employed after his return to Nashville by a gentleman to go to Washington to arrange some business, paid him well, in that way he was enabled to attend to his own case and his father’s, he was received very cordially by the president with fair promises etc. called on the Attorney General, got him to write to the A.G. at Knoxville to have his case continued till the next term. C. got the money to go to Washington, but was employed by a person to go there, his expenses were paid in that way, attended to his own cases and was thus saved from going to Knoxville at this time when it was so dangerous. November 11 Received a letter from M. J. D. enclosing $15.00 We this day spent the last cent for some corn, had but little meat in the house, did not know where the next was to come from – late in the evening the letter was handed to me. Was that chance? Or was it the kind watchful care of Providence. Robert made us a pleasant visit of a few days, we enjoy these visits so much and when we all get together do our best to get up something nice. November 19 After Col. A. ‘s death, this property was all advertized for note, we apprehended we should have to move again. Everything has been settled and we remain under the first contract – made with Col. A. which some of the heirs seemed disposed to repudiate, but by the firmness of Dr. R. A. and Mc. Who could prove the contract, they had to give up. There is but little generosity here – the people have no sympathy for refugees and those who have lost all, because they have lost their negroes , they feel that loss is greater that any and have no time to think of those who have lost houses, lands ,etc. December 7 Alex left to-day with his family for Georgia, we shall be lonely without them, we have very few friends to visit us here. December 17 Sabbath morn – the weather has been very cold for several days, in consequence I have had a return of the chills – this morning the ground is slightly covered with snow, with appearance of more, of course no one can go to church from here. December 23 Robert came to – day. December 24 Cold, trees covered with sleet. December 25 Christmas, no presents now, - how different from Christmas of former days. Shall we ever have home again? It can never be as it once was - so many beloved ones will be missing from the fireside. December 26 Some friends spent last evening with us, and enjoyed some refreshments – refugees as we are, we still indulge in a little hospitality. December 28 Some young ladies spent the day here. December 30 Two gentlemen called, Sue busy making a cake. December 31 The last of 65 - How rapidly time flies! Where shall we be the last day of 66? That is a question cannot be answered, everything is so uncertain, we may be in a worse condition than at present. We are comfortable here. On many accounts it is an unpleasant place to live. - Rain and gloomy weather for the past two weeks – no sociality – no friendship – no attention to strangers. We have been sick here – Mc. , Sue, and I – no one seems to care or came to enquire if we needed anything – could get no flour or any delicacy for the sick – our cook was a very poor one – we were not able to attend to it ourselves – often I felt like I could eat something nice. Dr. Ramsay went to a lady who had some good wine and she gave him some. January 1866 January 1 New Year’s Day - rain January 2 Rain and cold. January 3 Rain. January 4 Cloudy and cold. January 5 Clear and cold wind. January 6 Clear. January 7 Pleasant. January 9 Pleasant. Visit from Robert – these visits are so grateful to us in our lonely exile. January 12 Cold and cloudy – Robert left again. January 13 Cloudy and warm. January 14 Cloudy, - all gone to church to Hopewell. January 15 Cold rain, freezes as it falls. January 16 Thawing. January 19 Warm. January 20 Clear January 21 Very cold. Sue went to Charlotte Friday. Dr. Ramsay and McK. – to church to –day. January 27 Cold rain – Sue returned home this evening. January 28 Dr. R went to church. January 29 Cold January 30 Mr. Kirk from Kentucky with us to – night – came through Tenn. - describes the condition of that downtrodden country as no better – dangerous traveling. January 31 Pleasant - ploughed the garden to – day. February 1 Very cold - Dr. R. went this evening to visit a patient. February 2 Cold winter weather. Mc. hauling wood. February 11 Very cold February 15 Freezing cold - Sue and Mc. gone to a party. February 18 Rain all day - Sue and D.A. went yesterday to Dr. B.A. – received a letter Thursday night from M.J. February 21 Pleasant day – Dr. R went to S.C. to visit Mrs. Fuall. February 24 Rain all day - Sad and gloomy – went to the door and saw Robert coming which was truly a pleasant sight, although he was soaked with rain, but we soon made him comfortable, late in the afternoon Dr. R. came, - there are pleasant incidents in our exile. Reunions at our old home were all ways a time of rejoicing, but now it is a time of deep and heart felt gratitude. I often look down the lane and wish I could see Crozier and M. J. and her little boys coming. Received a letter from C. yesterday – wrote to him. February 26 Dr. and Mrs. Pharr spent this day with us. February 27 H. Henderson, Mrs. H., and Robert left this morning. February 28 Letter from J.M. Crozier. The birthday of our darling Arthur - little did we think the darling boy should come to such an end. Our Heavenly Father willed it. March 1 Anniversary of our marriage – pleasant day – many visitors – many sad scenes – we have gone through, and yet I am spared for what? – can do but little. “ O. that I had the wings of a dove – could fly away and be at rest.” March 11 The weather has been pleasant this month but our country, - can do but little. “ O, our country , once so prosperous, now anarchy and despotism every where prevails. We are a conquered people, fettered, powerless, ruled by tyrants. March 21 Received a letter from M.J. dated Feb. 20 – a month ago. March 31 The weather for a few days has been very cold, severe frost to-day, more moderate, but wind strong. Robert came this evening. April 1 Warm and pleasant. The peaches supposed to be seriously injured this last cold spell. Much disappointed that we got no letters from Tennessee - are subjected to many disappointments. April 8 Rain all day - very cold. April 9 Very cold. April 10 April 12 Pleasant weather, - planting corn, nearly done planting - received letters from Crozier and M.J. last Friday. April 13 Robert and Miss Atwell came from Rowan all going to a party at Capt. Johnson’s to – night. Mr. Kinsel and Mr. Barnhill here to-night. April 14 The young people dined at Dr. Henderson’s, - Mrs. B. Alexander spent the evening here – all returned to supper. Dr. Ramsay sent for in haste to visit one of Dr. Pharr’s children. April 15 All gone to church, Pleasant cool weather. April 16 This sad anniversary of the death of dear Charlotte is always remembered, Three years to – day she died and yet never a day passes but I think of her with tears, late and early. “ Why art thou cast down, O my soul? Hope thou in God.” Robert left this morning. April 22 The past week has been cloudy and showery, fine growing weather, Sacrament at Sugar Creek, Mc. and Sue gone there. April 29 Pleasant weather. Communion at Mallard Creek Church. Dr. R. and Sue gone. Received a letter from Crozier 27th. May 7 Pleasant weather. Sue and Mc. invited to Capt. J. to spend the day. May 9 Rain. Capt. Johnson and Miss Moore spent the evening. May 10 Sue gone to Dr. Alexander’s. Letters from C.M. , J. and R. this week, Rain in the afternoon. May 11 Rain incessantly. May 18 Rain all day yesterday. Robert came this evening. May 19 Dr. R and E. and I went to Poplar Tent Church - all night at Mr. Harris. May 20 Returned home this morning. May 21 Robert left this afternoon. May 25 Another sad anniversary, two years since dear Ettie died. “ And shall my bleeding heart arraign that God, whose ways are love! Or vainly cherish anxious pain for those who rest above. May 27 Communion at Hopewell, rained all morning yesterday none of us could go to church. I have no way to go except in D. A. little wagon – did not feel like I could take a long ride. Sue, Mc. , Mr. Kerr, Lottie and Dr. went. Dr. R on horse back. I seldom have an opportunity of going to church here. No one ever offers me a seat in a carriage unless they are asked, and I will not allow the family to ask longer excepting D. A. and his mother, they all ways offer their wagon or buggy. June 1 Sue gone to Rowan to a tournament. June 2 Rain all day yesterday, no church to-day, finished reading the Bible today, have read through twice since I came to N.C. June 10 All went to church to Prosperty, heard two excellent sermons from Mr. McPresley, is a fine preacher, the best I’ve heard in N.C. - preached two sermons yesterday on Friday. June 11 Mr. Presley was with us last night, had a pleasant and instructive visit from him, made such a good prayer last night, prayed so fervently for our family, - first for parents, then for children present, then for those absent and for their children. It is refreshing to have such a friend to visit us. We always loved to have ministers visit us, now we enjoy their company more than ever, it is like angel visits. June 15 A sad day 2 years since Arthur died – received a few days ago a kind letter from Mrs. Kline at whose house the poor boy died, gives the particulars of his coming to the house, amputation and death, which opened afresh the wounds in my heart which had never healed. A kind Providence directed them to a family where not only was his body cared for, but his precious soul – how thankful we all should be, it might have been very different - I pray God to bless the kind family who did every thing could be done for the dear sufferer. They prayed with him and directed him to the Savior. June 24 Robert came last night. All gone to church to –day. Dr. Ramsay to Prosperty, the others to Hopewell. July 1 Went to Hopewell, - Dr. Pharr preached, text St. John 18 Ch. 38 verse What is Truth? July 2 Sue and Mc . left this morning early for Rowan Co. to be married to-morrow morning, then he, Mollie and Sue will go North, will visit dear Arthur’s grave. The morning is fine, but my heart is heavy. O’ Father in Heaven protect , guide , and bless them, first that they may return in safety to us. July 11 A fine rain rain last night, will do much good, was greatly needed. Letter from Sue - they were at Norfolk, had a pleasant time. July 15 A beautiful Sabbath morn, cool refreshing breezes - yesterday hot and sultry. Letter from Sue last night at Baltimore, enjoying themselves finely, met with some Tenn. friends. July 18 Hot and dry weather, garden drying up. Mc. Gone to C. a telegraph from , Robert – all will be home to-morrow. July 20 This morning at 9, the children all came to breakfast. Crozier was much affected, so were we all, he has gone through so much since we say him, - imprisonment, robbed, insulted, threatened, and marched through his native town with a chain and ball attached to his foot, - no wonder the meeting would affect us all – July 21 Mr. and Mrs. Holliday and Mrs. Johnson called this evening, invited us all to tea Tuesday and Wednesday evening. July 22 Went to church at Hopewell long, long has it been since so many of went to-gether to church. July 24 The young people dined at Mrs. Alexander’s took tea at Capt. J, fine supper, pleasant time. July 25 Spent the evening at Mr. Holliday’s , very fine supper, pleasant company we enjoyed it highly. July 26 Invited to Dr. Henderson’s, very fine supper— July 27 Crozier, E. A. B. left for Tennessee. Sue, M. and Mc. To a picnic. July 30 Robert and Mollie left for Rowan. August 12 Went to hear Dr. Pharr preach his farewell sermon. August 19 Went to hear the Methodist, where there was quite a crowd from all the churches around. A good rain is the eve which is much needed – it being 3 weeks here and some places six, without rain, scarcity is apprehended if not suffering. September 23 Sue and I went to Sugar Creek Church to communion. Mr. Pharr preached an excellent sermon, text Lam. Of Jeremiah Chapt. 1st vs. 12. Is it nothing to you, all ye that pass by? J. and C. Mc went to Poplar Tent. Dr. Ramsay at home not being very well. When we returned home, found Robert and Mollie here which was a very agreeable surprise. September 30 Raining to-day, also yesterday. Much rain this month. November 4 Beautiful weather, Some cold disagreeable weather last month. R. and M. visited us last month, they are preparing to move, will start soon to look for a new home. May God guide and protect them. Received a letter from E. A. B. , she is staying with her sister’s little boys at Lenoir, Also one from Alex, they have another son, born 8th Oct. , named for darling Arthur. December 7 R. and M. left this morning, been with us two weeks. December 16 The ground is covered with sleet, gloomy day, very cold for a week. A letter from R. will stay here one year longer, perhaps best in the unsettled condition of the country. We expect to leave in two weeks. December 25 Dined at Mrs. Alexander’s with Mr. Holiday and family, Mrs. Johnson and Mr. Lowery. December 28 Had company to tea, Mr. and Mrs H., Mrs. J, Miss M.K., Dr. H, Mr. Lowery, two Mr. Alexander’s. December 29 Very cold weather, Robert and M. came. 1867 January 1 Sale of Col. A. ‘s property, quite a crowd here – the ground covered with snow, Have some sleighing. Mc. Brought Mrs. Hover in the sleigh. We have been disappointed about going to Alabama. January 11 I came to Dr. Pharr’s, - the rest will come to-morrow, will stay here this year perhaps. January 28 Commenced moving here (to Dr. P. ‘s ) first week of Jan. 1867 - how long shall stay here cannot tell – Dr. Ramsay gone to Charlotte. February 28 Rain, have had some spring like weather, been gardening some. This is dear Arthur’s birthday – always sad when these anniversaries come around – thought of him all day. March 1 46 years to-day since we were married. How many changes since many sad days many awful scenes have I witnessed. March 14 Raining for two weeks. March 15 Very cold and cloudy - snow. March 18 Very cold to-day, a little gleam of sun. March 19 Cold rains. March 22 Clear and pleasant. March 23 Cold and cloudy. March 28 Cold March 31 Communion at Hopewell, preaching by Mr. Miller. April 7 Warm and pleasant. Cold and frosty last week. Dr. Ramsay went to Charlotte yesterday. Received letters last week from Crozier, M.J. and Nannie. 1867 - The Anniversary April 16 Fours years have fled through their round, Since thou wert with the dead, Yet o’er my heart its healing balm. Oblivion will not shed; - If day bequiles my fond regret, Night comes – and how can I forget? April 30 Sue gone to Charlotte. Dr. Ramsay not yet returned from Mrs. L. May 25 Three years - And art thou gone dear Ettie? Have all thine sufferings ceased ? Yes, from all sorrow and from pain thou art forever released. June 5 , 1864 Battle of Piedmont - Alex a prisoner – Arthur wounded. June 15 Arthur farewell! A long farewell. Till scenes of earth are o’er, And the heart that fondly loved thee May meet those gone before, We feel they spirit, among the blest, Is robed in spotless white, Be it ours to strive to meet thee, In the angels halls of light – 1868, N.C. April 2 Presbytery meets at old Lebanon, Tenn., the first time since 1861. Sad changes taken place since then – we were all there, the trials and hardships we have gone through have been almost insupportable. April 4 Communion at Lebanon, Tenn. I am far away, but my spirit is there. I can see the minister in the pulpit, the crowd assembled in that old church, but many familiar faces seen on the former occasion will be missing on this. Some beloved ones have gone from earth, others wandering from place to place, among strangers, seeking homes and rest, Where shall rest be found? There stands the old church – there the grand old trees, which shelter it from the wintry blasting winds, or scorching rays of summers sun. The old house which was a home for the minister, the elder, and many of the people, is no longer there, the torch of the vandals who roamed over the country effectually destroyed that. They could not entirely mar the beauty of the place – there still will flow the same beautiful rivers – there still will stand that magnificent granite structure, built by God. Did no one on that day think of the past? Was there no sigh – no tear for the exile for away? Was there no petition to Heaven for those who were “ By the rivers of Babylon? Whose harps were hanged upon the willows?” When the songs of Zion were sung, was there no thought for those who once joined there – but are now singing in a strange land? The faces of the Exiles are often turned homewards, are there none turned towards them? Is there no hand ready to grasp – no beaming eye or joyous smile to greet the returning Exile? Are we missed? April 16, 1863 dearest Charlotte died, that mournful night will ever be remembered – all were there except Crozier, who was at the siege of Vicksburg. Dear Ettie , dear Arthur, who were so soon to follow her – they loved so well, were of that mourning group. “ The unhappy house, looks desolate and mourns , And every door groans doleful as it turns” – In four months that group of mourners were, scattered and the old homestead laid in ashes. May 1869 A remnant of the mourning group were standing around the dying bed of another loved one, the mother and two sisters were all the relatives that followed dear Ettie to the grave. “ Farewell, bright soul, a short farewell,” Till we shall meet again above” June 15th 1864 Arthur died, You too left earth to join your lovely sisters – you the darling pet of the household - none loved better than the two who went before you – Oh that mournful day, there were none of that mourning group with you - Alone you were with strangers – strangers though they were kind. Sweet soul , we leave thee to thy rest, Enjoy thy Jesus and thy God Till we, from bands of clay released, Spring out and climb the shining road. While the dear dust they leave behind, Sleeps in their boson scared tomb, Soft be their bed, their slumbers, kind And all their dreams of joy to come. February 15 , 1871 - Moved to Charlotte, N. C. May 17 Left Charlotte for Tenn. May 19 Arrived at Lenoir. May 23 Arrived at Knoxville 11 A.M., at Riverside 6 P.M. March 1872 Moved to Knoxville. December 25 , 1875 This is a Merry Christmas to some, others sorrowful and said. I hear in the streets the explosions of numerous firecrackers and the shouts of boys and masked raiders. Some of our esteemed friends are languishing on their beds, - some from bodily disease, other from mental, - around the bed of some, friends have been watching days and nights for them to depart. Who does not know the agony of such times, watching over a beloved sufferer with tearful eyes and broken hearts – powerless - can neither relieve there suffering or retain them with us. But there is One who will go with them through the “dark valley” and across the river, to the shining shore, will lead them to “green pastures “. “ Christmas Eve” there was a terrible storm, yet all night long amidst the Artillery of Heaven could be heard the explosions of fireworks in the streets of the city. - So says the Scriptuire until the last days there shall be reverlry. We were remembered by some kind friends and some elegant refreshments were sent to us through the day. 1876 January 1 Bright warm day yesterday. New Year’s Eve had some pleasant friends to take tea with us – all seemed to enjoy the evening. Some fireworks after night. January 2 Gloomy day. Mr. Harrison preached at the Third Church, of course no one from here could go to church, since Breck and Mc. Have gone to-night. January 4 Clear. Mr. Harrison spent yesterday evening with us, gave us some interesting details of his trip to Europe. January 6, Clear and cool. Prayer meeting here to-night. Mr. Mc Donald was the only one to conduct the service – it was a good and interesting meeting, or prayer meeting every night in the church. January 7 Clear and frosty – E.B. and L.S. out all day, returning calls. Prayer meeting the 1st Presbyterian Church.Some persons considerably excited on the municipal election, - holding meeting every night - negros and white. January 8 Clear and cool. Preaching at the 1st Presbyterian, preparatory to communion to-morrow. January 9,1876 Cloudy morning – had winds – storm at night. January 11 Clear and cold. January 12 Very cold – freezing cold. January 13 Cold, clear, heard form S— all well. January 14 Coldest day. January 15 Cold – Municipal election - all quiet at night. January 16 Sleet last night - this morning cloudy - rain. January 17 Rain all day. January 18 Stormy, rain all day. January 29 Cloudy – rain at night. February 1 Cold wind – storm in the eve. February 2 Cold. February 3 Snow. When in the Atlanta Assembly 1882, the Fraternity debate was in progress, few who had heard,wills soon forget the impassioned eloquence of the gifted Girardeau as he announced “ That the Southern Confederacy was dead, and standing upon its grave in the Assembly the besought his brethren not to establish fraternal relations with the men who destroyed his beloved country. There is much being said about the Union of the Churches of the North and South. The Rev. R.H. Smoot D.D. write a good article on this subject. Says there were always two parties in the church, that there were acts passed if not repealed, “The South could not join them without the surrendering their principles that would be acknowledging we had no cause for war. And that we had been playing the hypocrite before the world.” The whole article is excellent. I saw many ministers in the Northern Army, in one regiment near us al the officers were Methodists ministers, they had preaching and prayer meeting very often, crowds went to hear them, it was said they were having a revival. I thought I would go to hear them, there was no service of any other kind. Their petitions consisted of denunciations against the South - all the evils that could be thought of were hurled against the South. Not one prayer that their enemies should repent and be forgiven. I was reminded of the persecution of the Covenentors of Scotland when they had to hide from their cruel persecutors, had to hide their Bible which taught peace and love…. During the siege at Knoxville our family was living twenty miles below, we were constantly annoyed by troops of straggling soldiers, robbing and taking every thing, even stole all they could find from the negros. When they went into a house after searching every press and closet, would run their guns with bayonets up the chimneys thinking to find something hidden there. There came a great many there one day. I could compare them to nothing but a pack of wolves. They went into every place carried away every thing, called for an axe to break the door of the meat house, some of the family told them they need not do that they would give them the key – they took every piece, did not leave a scrap. It was Sabbath and the ground was covered with snow. One part of the cellar was separated from the other. My daughters, Mrs. Lenoir and Sue stood on the cellar door to keep the vandals from taking what was in it. I went there to tell them to come in out of the cold, as I walked through the crowd of brave soldiers, one of them said “ Well ,old women, the Yankees treat you badly do they?” I did not reply or look towards them. One of them cursed Etta. I said ,” Do you curse ladies?” did not your mother teach you that was wrong, or have you any mother. Said , yes he had. One who was near, - told him to hush, he said too much. I said to the one who reproved the other fellow, why don’t you go with the army and fight men, instead of lagging to fight women and children. I told him this was the worst thing they could do, to rob of everything they had to eat and leaving them to starve. “ How would you like it?” said I, “ if anyone should treat your mother and sisters so; he replied I would not care if they were rebels. They were poor, ignorant fanatics, they did not know what a rebel was – they accused us of breaking the Constitution. I told one, I did not believe he knew what the Constitution was, he seemed much insulted. September 23, 1885 I have just read a good letter from my son F.A. Rasey, written to his young brother J.G. Mc. Rasey on his way to California. Dated July 27, 1849. Camp Rest – St. Joseph , Mo. It brought vividly to my mind the sad day when our dear boys took their departure from a pleasant home for that long , tedious and disastrous journey. I wrote now with eyes filled with tears, although it is more than thirty years ago. Oh! There was wailing and sorrow in that house that bright May morning. It was a final parting with one beloved son and brother, never did we hehold his pleasant noble face and manly form again, he was a gifted youth, had a brilliant intellect, We had marked for him a career of usefulness and distinction. A Lady ’s Opinion of General Andrew Jackson “ He is an eagle in ruffles” – has an eagle eye, an eagle’s strength. When in a contest made the object of his ire feel the force of his beak and talons and the stroke of his powerful wings. In repose he was the courteous and refined gentleman, especially to ladies and children.” I have often thought would like to tell my grand children something about their ancestors. As I have not an opportunity of doing so , will write a short sketch. Some of them, I think, will like to know who and what they were, others perhaps will not care to know anything about them.My father and mother were plain, sensible people, kind and hospitiable , entertained strangers, the poor, and needy were sheltered and provided for.Capt. John Crozier and Mrs. Hannah Crozier were always the first applied to for anything for the church ,for charity. Their house was a home for the minister and all Christian people. He would loose a debt rather than that distress a family by taking their property. Sermon on the Mount More than 18 centuries ago, an immense multitude assembled on a mountain in Galilee to hear Him who “Spake as never man spake,” deliver that discourse which was to be the exponent of the new faith, and the unerring guide of his chosen people in all future time. The illustrious speaker looked right down into the hearts of his audience and read their most secret emotions etc.------- “And when he was set, his disciples came unto him, and he opened his mouth and taught them.” These few words furnish the key to unlock the casket, which contains jewels of such inestimable value, as to have drawn from the illustrious Webster, the acknowledgment that the richness and beauty of the gems sparkling through the Sermon on the Mount, proved them to belong to the treasury of Heaven. “ The Lord’s Prayer “ Our father etc., ------ This wonderful prayer has excited the admiration of the wise and good throught out the world ------ Even the stupid infidel and shallow scoffer have not failed to perceive the beauty, sublimity and comprehensiveness. It consists of three parts - 1st “ That relates to the glory of God.” 2nd – What is required for the temporal and spiritual well being of man. 3rd doxology or ascription of praise to the Triune God. These parts are again subdivided etc., -----Faith for he says “ Our Father” He that cometh to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him.” Hope – He uses the language of expectation. – May thy kingdom ------- Second - We are taught by the figure dependence upon God. The, vine, to which the believer is so often likened in the scriptures is a dependant plant. It can never rise above the ground and must forever creep along there unless it lay hold with its tendrils upon something of steerdier growth. If it wrap itself around the majestic oak with broad spreading branches, it too will send out its creepers, far and wide and it will fall only when the giant of the forest shall fall. But if it seige upon some frail and slender support, it will share in the insignificance of its prop, and partake of its speedy ruin. If it climbs upon the tall pine its clusters will ripen high in the air, under the genial influence of the sun. But if it attach itself to some dwarfling of the grove it will be overshadowed and its fruit will be sour and rotten, from want of high and the heat. Thus it it is with men, if he cling to the earth, he will be a groveller and creeper all the days of his wretched existence. But if he take Jesus as his prop and support, he will ever be rising higher and higher towards Heaven and God, And his fruit will be unto eternal life. Third The figure teaches the avoidance of ostentation and display. The vine and the fig tree have no gawdy flowers to attract the eye, and please the fancy. The vine, when in bloom, fills the surrounding atmosphere with its fragrance. But the perfume literally steals upon the air. The modest giver can only be found after diligent search empowered from observation in some leafy covert. And thus should be with the child of God..The odor of his holy life should be breathed by all in his atmosphere, while he himself is in retirement from prying gaze and noisy applause. It was mid winter, and the weather cold and dreary when the Confederate Army commenced its retreat from -------- Many days did this army of brave soldiers encamp for the purpose of recapturing that ill fatal country. But yankee ingenuity and industry baffled them - the fortifications were too strong, it could not be done without great loss. There were representatives in this army from every Southern State. Many soldiers and citizens were with that army, who were in site of their homes and witnessed the burning of their houses, not knowing the where abouts of their families. But who can paint the agony of those within the Federal lines, when known they were again to be abandoned to yankee rule and tyranny, we had witnessed their burnings and blundering and born their insults so long. We were stricken with terror, when the Confederates commenced retreating. It was in the midst of this retreat that a Confederate soldier, who was very sick and unable to go farther, was brought to the house of ------ by some of his comrades and asked for lodging, it was a bitter and cold night. There was much excitement, the house crowded, many friends called took their supper, waited for the moon to rise and left---- some ladies with young children who had determined not to be left again, after being refreshed with a few hours rest, followed. The sick soldier’ s friends remained with him until morning, hoping he might after a night’s rest be able to go on, he was too ill. The ladies assured the young men their friend should be well cared for; It was with much apprehension we saw him stay behind the army, we knew that post would soon be occupied by the enemy – they always considered of much and kept a large army there. The office in the yard near the family was always occupied by the yankee general, and we knew it would be impossible to conceal a rebel there. Our “ Little Rebel” as he was called, soon recovered – squads of Yankees were everyday passing and he had to be kept close in his room, we were all the while planning a way for his escape. One day he saw a yankee coming to his room, he crept into bed and commenced groaning so piteously that the yankee seemed frightened and left him – some days after another entered, told him he could stay there ‘till he was called for, then we knew his departure must be hastened. A gentleman who lived some distance up the river, promised to bring his canoe the next night, the “ little rebel “ must be at the river at 12. The next thing was to procure a suitable disguise. One of the young ladies went into the attic, found a coat which had belonged to much taller of the “claw hammer “ kind, which had been stored away with other articles for some years – when the youthful soldier came to take leave, we could not restrain our mirth although we were all in danger. (on back of Journal) So! While the sun was shining bright Fast flashing “mid the storm fight The thundering cannon’s livid light Glared on the eye most frightfully. Then deadly flew the balls of lead! But Oh! Confederate soldiers fled! From Piedmont’s gory battle. And long our hero’s swords prevails, But hist’ that deep and doleful wail Ah! Freedom’s sons begin to fail Oppressed by numbers battleing. Tis’ done, the dreadful fight is o’re. Thick clouds of smoke are seen no more; The battle field is red with gore Where fell the sons of liberty. ( The disaster of the June 5th, 1864 was caused by the retreating of a certain regiment , which shall here be nameless here. )